The boy catches AIDS after endangering the sexual behavior high Have wanted to jump out of the building and commit suicide after making a definite diagnosis of

The boy catches AIDS after endangering the sexual behavior high Have wanted to jump out of the building and commit suicide after making a definite diagnosis of
The boy catches AIDS after endangering the sexual behavior high Have wanted to jump out of the building and commit suicide after making a definite diagnosis of
Interview " Ai You " It is small but (assumed name) Pass the network " Ai You Q group " Realize. Small this year 23 year old, meter of heights, pale skin, handsome figure, he wear ashy woollen overcoat, jeans, it is a fresh and cool, guy of the sunshine. Mention AIDS, can say frankly and sincerely while being little: "Infected by my boyfriend. " " really want to jump down from the 12th floor " Before finding AIDS in 2009, it is an ordinary university student at school to be small. In that summer, he and classmate went to unpaid blood donation together, examined the result for the first time but made people shock: The inspection result reveals HIV-positively. "The first response of mine is: ' it is impossible. ' always think AIDS very far from me. I make great efforts to recall the possible infection channel: "Go to the small clinic to have tooth pulled out? Due to blood transfusion while having disease? " He at that time, there was very little knowledge of AIDS. That day, small one house the intersection of experience and most heavy blow under life. "The next morning,it get after it get up I toilet,divide getting open all life apparatuses such as toothbrush, towel,etc., having a meal will divide the bowl. " Can be sad that this lets small. In two or three weeks, parents go home and remain silent, more uncomfortable in it is small and satisfying, lie in bed and does not go anywhere every day, mother cries indoor in the evening, he himself cries in the room stealthily. "One day, I fell ill and lay without there are not people to come with in the hospitalling, one was cranky, even thought that it has been calculated that death ends all trouble to jump down from the 12th floor like this. But mother loves me, she can not certainly stand. " Can say that it is small. Little can propose to parents, " I should move out, will not live with you. " " the excessive feeling lets me pay a price " Recall the past, can heart fill entangled with. He says - -Going to school begins, I feel indistinctly, oneself is different from other boys. For example see beautiful girl, I have no feeling aroused in interest, opposite but will pay close attention to the boy with handsome, handsome feature stealthily. That year of 20 years old, a chance chance, I was on the wall of public lavatory, the friend-making information of the person who finds much man homosexuality. I leave a person's contact details stealthily, and invite him to meet. That time, I tasted and " prohibited fruits " for the first time in life . Big three that years, I realized the cloud (assumed name) on the friend-making forum ,Fall in love at first sight. I think the cloud is the person understanding me most, we have met and really had the other side quickly. Half a year later, I move out of dormitory and cloud and live together simply. We buy vegetables and cook, go out together to play together like friends of men and women, very happy. I find I cloud only, he is still relation with many people gradually later on. Unless extremely sad I, be quarrelled total he,shortly after say good-bye completely we. In order to calm down scar of heart, even more in order to retaliate against the former boyfriend, it is small can move towards " the sex overflows " "Which time it is on earth, AIDS which someone infects, I am really undeterminable. " Can say learn ill period of time those at first, he especially wants the broken pot to break and fall while being small, even want to commit suicide. However, it is parents' kindred and " Ai You Q group " Pull him upward from the verge of death back. " preserve one's purity and refuse to swim with the stream and cherish every day " Nowadays is small can have a bright and cheerful disposition, strong, he always leaves the smile of the sunshine to everybody, it is unable to link him and AIDS together at all. Can say in " Ai You Q group " while being small Help under,think he by oneself it become sensible,it is accompany more family not to know, there are getting getting positive more too on life, he thinks, a good psychology is more important than any other things. "No matter what thing it is, since the unable change has happened, not so good as facing, it is poor that perhaps there is no oneself to imagine. I have already gone through death, so regard every day as the last day. No matter successes and failures, live the samely. " Because a lot of the infeted can not accept oneself, it can become " Ai You Q group " that it is small Active mind,specially for the infeted do psychological consultation. "I want to use one's own story, let more the infeted put down. " Accept detection early, go until having illness coming on, after measure HIV-positive, don't be disheartened either, receive treatment in time. "A few years, my CD4 has been in about 500 all the time, the normal person is 500-1200, I am even suspecting whether oneself has been finally really infected with AIDS. " It is small can laugh candidly, " go on like this, I can live with normal people long equally too. " It is small can say, he hopes everybody can know AIDS, forgives and understands that the society can be more, don't stick labels not good such as taking drug, bad young man,etc. on the person living with HIV/AIDS. In addition, he wants to remind young people with one's own experience, especially the university students at school: It must not regard homosexuality as the fashion to preserve one's purity and refuse to swim with the stream, do not want a person who tries to harm others is likely to harm himself. (the intersection of reporter and the intersection of Tang and the intersection of sunflower and open the intersection of intern and Xi Yi, king of Shuang, Hou interview and write, photograph Shen grow)


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